Balance

We need balance in everything right?

Well, add in a little perspective and I think you have a recipe for success.

I do not even know who I am any more. Not that I am becoming someone I do not recognize, but I have a hard time dealing with reality nowadays. Not the reality of the spouse or the kids. Not even the reality of work and school on top of everything else. It is the reality of the absolute certainty I have of the existence of God, Heaven, and the ability to be with our loved ones again.

My life changed forever earlier this year. A loss that hurts every time I even come close to thinking about it has changed the way I look at everything I do. I find myself pushed to do more. More than I maybe can do. But if I do not even try, I feel that I am falling short of the time I am blessed to be upon the earth.

And then I have the waves of worthlessness that will wash over me. I will feel like I need to stop working so hard because in the end none of it matters.

But it all does matter. It does not matter if I make the most money, live in the fanciest house, or have the nicest car. What matters is that I was not idle. I want to be able to say I did not waste the time I was given when there were others who did not even get to grow old.

All in all, I am busy, I miss my family, but I am trying to arrange things so that I can balance everything and still work towards the goals I have set for myself. It will not be easy, but I really think it will be worth it.

Just some thoughts,

Have a great day!

Everythings great, right?

Life throws you curve balls. It's just a fact. If we do not jump out of the way, they can knock us around and may sting for a bit. But get up swinging! This life is but a mere moment in the eternalness of the universe.

So, if you are down and out right now, remember there is definitely someone more down and out than you.

Get up swinging!

Have a great day!

Not soon enough......

Okay, been really busy with school,..................kind of crazy actually! Things are going pretty good and I am even figuring out my "bad" instructor and have an outside chance at a great grade but am keeping the expectations earthly based. I will be okay, very disappointed-but okay, with a B in his class.

I never before, in high school or college- when I was younger(and less busy), ever been looking so forward to a spring break! And it is right around the corner. After tonight I only have one physical class to attend, one test to take, and one mid-term essay to write. The latter of which is scaring me a little because I work every day this week. But then in class tonight, the instructor lets me know that she will take it anytime during spring break if I need extra time. HOW SWEET IS THAT!? Anyway, still would like to turn it in by Saturday night, but so much pressure is off, just knowing I have extra time if /i really need it.

And just to toot my own a horn a little. Was totally called out in front of other classmates on how to correctly post to the on-line discussion posts and to challenge other classmates. TOOT-TOOT!
(me tooting my own horn, lol)

So, anybody else looking forward to spring break? One mom I know said spring break is no break for her. Just more dirty dishes and bodies laying around the house. I for one am gonna try and find some fun stuff for the family to do. Any suggestions? And remember, we have zero money, so you gotta be pretty creative!

Have a great day stalkers!

3 A's and a pompous _____!

Okay, so time to vent! I am fuming. Okay, blog stalker, breathe........in... ......out........... ...........in............ ...............out.....................repeat repetetively........

whew......I have posted about my issues with my 'one' class that I could not seem to get a good grade in. Good grade for me means an A. I am an A student and have been most of my college life(way back then) except for that one class and then there was that one semester....but overall, yes I have been proud of my ability to rise to the level of the class and do what it takes to earn a high mark.

So obviously I was so so deflated when my first grade was so crappy. It just so happened it was the first graded item this semester out of all four classes. I was mortified, to say the least, but motivated to do better. I started "communicating" with the professor. I didn't get anywhere, hence no follow up post about it. I did end up averaging 8 and 9 points on each 10 point quiz since the first one(where I only got 6!) But the problem is, this professor is so full of himself and arrogant. His online lectures are bad enough, but his emails show me just how egotistical he is. I, and other students, have had to point out questions on the quizzes(which we cannot go back and see, or study from) were not found in any assigned readings. I have recouped points because of this.(which give me my 8.5 average)

I have some physical classes with a few others taking this online class with the same instructor. They are having the same experience if not worse. And then we take his first exam(there are only 3, two mid terms and a double weighted final) I felt so good after I checked all my answers with my notes.(online, so notes are okay) There was no way in H*^L I didn't get a solid A, at least that's how I felt till I submitted it. I got a 78. How does that happen?

After this test there was some serious discussion on the online discussion board. Apparently I got one of the better grades. The overall opinion is that he is somehow word games and changing maybe a transition word here and there to throw us off. I swear I took all my answers straight from my 'marked to death' course materials.

So, what is his response? "Some of you are displeased with the results of your exam. I want you all to do well, but please note this is an institution of higher learning, college, and it is supposed to be difficult." -Jerk

I understand difficult. Try having a million kids in a million different things and work full time, go to school full time sleep(3 hours average a night) serve in your church, be active politically at the local level, etc, etc, I KNOW DIFFICULT! He seems hell bent on personally weeding out the dregs of society based on HIS tests. UGH!

Okay, to the one reader still reading this, "Thanks for letting me vent!" As a matter of balance, I am currently earning an "A" in each of my other three classes. And the class in question.......is the only freshman level class. Yes, it is a 100 level class! unbelievable, and the rest of them are 300 or 400 classes. I just can't figure it out!

Well, still got that mid term to finish.......lol

You guys RAWK!

HAVE A GREAT DAY!

28 hour day! It could happen......right?

Okay, so my resolve to post more often is not working out the way I had planned. But I have an idea to help me out. I call it the 28 hour day. Sounds pretty good, right? Oh my gosh, what I could do with another 4 hours in the day.

So, how it would work is just get rid of Mondays. With the 24 hours we would save we could just lengthen each day by 4 hours. Of course, we would need to convince businesses and schools etc that 32 hours a week are worth the same now that 40 used to be. Okay, then school could not cover the same amount of material and oh crap, less shopping days............and what would happen to all the calender makers in the country? Okay, maybe I just need to get better at managing my time.

I am supposed to be working on a big research mid-term(one of two due) and yet I am posting a blog. Oh well, gotta get those creative juices flowing, the break from looking at all the research is good for me. right? sure it is.

well, back to the paper I guess....ugh.......and all you Monday lovers out there,.....................chill out, I was just thinking out loud.